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            Web 
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              Take 
              a 
              PAW web exclusive column by Wes Tooke '98 (email: cwtooke@princeton.edu) 
             
             January 
              24, 2001: 
              Reinventing 
              a cynic 
              Our young columnist 
              finds a new mission and many hugs 
            by Wes Tooke '98 
            Ever since high school 
              I've reveled in my carefully cultivated cynicism. I've never joined 
              a singing group, I root for the Boston Red Sox, and I never watch 
              anything on CBS. For me, cynicism presented a clearly easier route 
              through life - rather than allowing myself to join my more idealistic 
              contemporaries in chasing dreams, I could instead just smirk and 
              try to coin a perfectly cutting phrase whenever they fell especially 
              hard. 
            My experiences in college 
              only reinforced my cynical tendencies. Princeton's politics and 
              economics departments gave me the tools to explain with academic 
              precision why the world will always be broken; why we can never 
              hope to really change anything for the better. As I watched this 
              latest American presidential campaign, I found it very easy just 
              to shrug and reach for another beer. I was slowly damning myself 
              to a lifetime of infinitesimal expectations. 
            And then a few weeks 
              ago an old friend of mine invited me to a conference for youth leaders 
              that he was helping to host. He said that the ostensible goal of 
              the meeting was to promote peace. The rational part of my mind recoiled 
              in horror - I don't like hugs, I don't enjoy burning incense, I 
              don't wear tie-dyed anything. But the deeper part of me, the part 
              that hates my ironic detachment, said what the hell and bought a 
              ticket to Malibu, California. 
            I nevertheless arrived 
              at the conference a thorough skeptic. And sometimes during the weekend 
              I felt as if my suspicions were being confirmed - there was more 
              hugging and singing and candles than at an Indigo Girls concert. 
              But mostly I felt myself being transformed by the energy of the 
              people around me. I met a 19-year-old guy who founded a company, 
              sold it to Microsoft for two million dollars, and is now trying 
              to connect young people on the Internet. I met a 24-year-old woman 
              who ran across Bosnia for peace and is now a youth coordinator for 
              a major international organization. And I kept hearing stories that 
              touched me: A Thai girl who sold everything she owned to go to a 
              peace conference; an African teenager who has started his own school, 
              an American organization that forces Palestinian and Israeli kids 
              to spend time together.  
            As those stories began 
              to overwhelm me, I stopped smirking at the notion of being a peace 
              activist and instead began to question my own life. Did I really 
              want to spend my time on this planet smugly criticizing other people 
              from the Throne of the Detached Writer? What kind of person would 
              I be in 20 years? As I spent more time with the group, the answers 
              to those questions only became more and more confusing. 
            But just as I began to 
              feel overwhelmed, several of us had an idea so compelling that I 
              found myself almost immediately willing to devote years of my life 
              to it. We realized that the various organizations serving young 
              people desperately need an uniting voice - a voice that can attract 
              both donors and young men and women who don't already identify themselves 
              as youth activists. These organizations need to find a way to get 
              exposure outside the realm of traditional media, which seems content 
              to largely ignore them. In short, they need a general interest magazine 
              dedicated to telling their stories. 
            So we're starting a new 
              online nonprofit magazine with the ambitious mission of helping 
              these young people change their world. The new magazine already 
              has three things that every successful Internet venture requires: 
              an enormous and interested audience, a means to attract that audience 
              to the site, and a bottomless well of fascinating stories. And as 
              we've worked over the last month to write the business plan, we've 
              also added a goal that is close to my own heart. The editorial staff 
              of the magazine will consist entirely of young writers, and part 
              of the magazine's mission will be to develop those young writers 
              into the kind of ethical and inspired reporters the world so desperately 
              needs. 
            If this basic idea interests 
              you, the business plan has many more hooks that I guarantee you 
              will find at least as compelling. Many youth organizations are already 
              doing fascinating things on the Internet, and the magazine already 
              has the partnerships to build on that foundation. So if you're interested 
              in what some remarkable young people are doing to change their world; 
              if you're interested in the idea of training the next generation 
              of serious reporters; if you're interested in helping people help 
              people; then please e-mail me (cwtooke@princeton.edu) for more information. 
              We desperately need both advice and funding. 
            Otherwise, please come 
              to the site in six months. I promise that these kids will knock 
              your socks off. As I contemplate the next few years of my life, 
              I find myself as scared as I've ever been. I know we have a lot 
              of work to do before this idea becomes a reality. And maybe I'll 
              get exhausted or burn out. Maybe I'll give up after a couple of 
              years. But I've seen the other side of life - the cynical side. 
              And I don't want to do that anymore. 
               
                
            Wes Tooke is a regular 
              contributor to PAW Online. You can reach him at cwtooke@princeton.edu 
              
              
            
            
    
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